I don’t need your freaking pity. You DONT even like me so don’t ask me what’s wrong and tell me to feel better cause you’re acting flat out fake.
I don’t even know what to feel. You’re my friend but you do that in front of my face, seriously? You would give me advice and you flirt with him? What are you trying to do. I’m so sick to my stomach because of how I feel. Why do I get so hurt like this. What am I doing wrong. I’m always putting myself onto someone I like and I end up getting hurt. I just want to cry and cry. I don’t know what to feel, I’m not even happy. All it takes is a smile to hide all the pain even if it hurts sooo bad. And I’m so tired trying to keep up a smile to know that I’m not even happy. I’m not even close to it. I’m so fucking wrecked and broken.
No one understands how much things are going on in my head right now. I feel so depressed and lonely. Was I a mistake to live on earth or..? because it’s like everything has to be put on me. everything.
Tired of having to pull friendships together whenever arguements happened. You’re saying things about our problem that aren’t even true because you didn’t even talk to us about it like seriously? We’re mad at you for hanging out with other people? What kind of bullshit. We never even said that. Things that don’t come out of our mouth you shouldn’t even be saying. We’re pissed off because you blew us off thinking you were coming but you “ditched” us. You texted me that day saying you would text me back after you were done running errands to meet up an hour later you’re with them off base? Don’t sound like the good person here because you haven’t even talked to us.
Idk lol. I’m so confused over you. You can’t ignore me for a while then talk to me like you didn’t do anything. That’s not how it works. My feelings for you are literally gone. Like gone. And you say, you still like me and you want me back. No, it’s not like that anymore. I’m so done, there’s so many complications with you. To start it off, I can’t even be my myself around you and it sucks because you’re in all my core classes.